I hate this.
All my life, I've been in a nice little bubble, pink and floating through unicorn and cupcakes land.
But now, all that's gone away...
I've been blessed with a curse. Or cursed with a blessing. To care (as my mom says) way too much for my own good.
My life before high school was relatively amazing. Of course, to me, at the time, it was terrible. Prior to 7th grade, I had no actual friends, and my parents went through a rough time in their relationship. My friends and I were being seperated by the different school districts. I didn't make it into the school I really wanted to get into. Day to day drama...
But, 3 months into 9th grade, everything was perfect. I had an overflowing supply of friends, my parents got over themselves (and can handle anything now...), and I still keep in touch with my other friends. And for that school, I'm happy here, where I am right now.
I am SO freakin fortunate, more than I'll ever know. Everytime I hear something like, "I always skip lunch...My mom will be mad if I ask for money" or "I have no childhood. It ended when the physical and verbal abuse, cutting....started" I'm just in awe at my ignorance before. How did all of this happen around me, to the people I knew, without me knowing? My world was safe and happy. Everyone was like me, with a nice family, a nice life, and nothing bad.
Within a couple months, I learned so much about the people around me. I don't live in a place where everyone's okay, like me.
Unfortunately, I've figured this out too late. A month left of school leaves no time to befriend every student I hear a rumor about. Damn.
A little bit of me wants to block this out. I can't do anything about it, really. But I know that if I do, I'll regret it terribly if something bad happens...
Just try...
Hope, Pray, and offer a Smile...
